Slowly.

Yesterday which was Friday, I went home and waited until 7:40 to go watch GodSpell. We met up wit Denise and we sat next to Senora. The show started and it was pretty funny. Intermission just stood and talked then went back to the show and it ended. Congratulated my HOT THANG! [Erika Dayto] and of course Azalea Mae Cantiller. The show was good but I was lost at times. Night ended with taking pictures.Called Lisa and talked for a a bit.

Woke up at 5:25. Just to say Goodmorning to Lisa since she was going to go take her test for Sacramento State. We talked then she had to go. Called me back at 7:20 and she was there and was lost. Haha. It was cute. Wished her luck and fell asleep. Woke up at 10 and was forced to go Cherry picking. I was tired and I didn't want to go. But, my dad really wanted to so I went. We went there and the sun was bothering me, I was too lazy to walk around in the hot sun. We then went to Tj MAXX & Ross. Nothing there then to Costco. Went home and Tony, Kimmie and Teya were there. We talked and ate tacos . Yum =). It was nice seeing my family. Then headed to Kerks.It was Kerks,Charles,Jasmin,Monica,Zack, and Ian. It was lightweight awkward at first but it was cool. Kerks made the yummy dip and freckled lemonade. Thanks. Charles, Me and Jasmin all started talking and basically lettting each other know what was going on. Then Monica and Kerks joined in. We all us talked and it was nice. We all promised to be there for each other. Makes me look at Kerks,Charles,Monica, and Jasmin ina better way. (Not that I didnt) but they somewhat are more important. Jasmin and I talked. It felt good to know that we are still BFF+1 Day. Basically, I just told her how I felt and let her know what was up. I love you. Really, Hands down. Charles Brother dropped Me,Monica, & Jasmin at the bowling alley. We played pool and Me & Jasmin won against Monica and then we played against Errol & Jocelyn and we won again =). Haha. Headed home. It felt good catching up with Jasmin. Feels like I havent talked to her in forever. Vented out to her a WHOLE lot. We promised each other we wouldn't let each other drift apart anymore. I love you BEST FRIEND FOREVER AND EVER + 1 DAY =)

slowly getting better...... just need to fix it with the others that im drifting away from.

AHH! kill me.

okay. things lately = NOT GREAT. At all. So seems like its all BULLSHIT! no really. Im tired of it all. People have been Bi-Polar. Not just one person but more. Ugh. Geeze. and I get caught in it. Just sick of it. Get me out. So, Monday. I had my emotoinal breakdown. I was just tired of all the arguments going on in my house and I tried to play it off as I didnt care and it just hit me. I went to my mom and literally balled my eyes out. It got better. But, that night another argument with a friend. In reality, Im taking it better than i thought i would. I mean I care but im not tripping. I guess somewhat, I tried to hide my emotions by being really hyper at lunch. Im good. Things will somehow and someday get better. Not any time soon. But hopefully, this drama drifts away with the wind. As od right now, I dont know what I am feeling. Its bittersweet. A couple more days with the SENIORS. Damn Already? What am I going to do without my sister at school? No more big hugs from Denise. Wow. time really does go by fast.

So this Literally made my day: Thanks Nadeen Nassar =)

I hella liked how it was out of no where

I just dont find the time..

TO BLOG. geeze Its not as fun. But today I got picked up from Lisa's and then went to Brentwood to go Cherry picking. We went with my cousins that we rarely see. It was fun they brought Declan with them. So me and my sister had this long talk about basically EVERYTHING we hadn't updated each other on. Although I didn't like some stuff that I heard it was whatever. It was somewhat but it was fun. Declan was throwing cherries and us and we were throwing it back at him. Until, my Dad told me not to act like a little kid.We went back to my cousins house, ate and played pool. It was really relaxing. I just wished my cousins who are my age were there to make it funner. But they had work =/. It was fun overall. Its nice spending time with my Dads side of the Fam, only time i see my Dad truly happy.

Other than that. Things at my house havent been the best. I find myself really distant from my mom and it bothers me. As many talks as we have it doesnt seem to help anything. Oh well, hopefully it gets better. Friends wise, we have that shit talker. I swear sometimes I feel like all I am is being judged by them. Comment after comment, but no they dont say it to me they say it to someone else. And to someone they arent really close with and I find out. It just gets me mad, I feel bad everytime I leave to go talk to others cause I know it bothers them. If its bothering you,tell me. I dont understand, Im not gonna spend my whole lunch sitting at the table when we dont talk about anything and it is so boring. Geeze. This is what I call my Friends? FUCK IT! [Dont bother asking & dont automatically assume who it is]

This is pretty much it.Goodbye

Lisa And Irma Day Part 1 & 2.

Lisa is leaving me soon so I might as well take advantage of the time I have with her. We planned to have an Irma & Lisa Day so we did. Thursday, right after school we went to happy sashimi, we ordered crunchy roll,crispy roll and Lion king roll with a side of salad. Pretty good and I got full. Bill came out to $30 dollars and she wanted to pay for all of it. I couldnt let her so, I secretly put $10 in her wallet. Then we went to her house and she fell asleep on me. Did nothing but went on the comp. Then we went to pick up Carolyn and she was hella tired. We went to the bank and then to open house. Carolyn ended up falling asleep in the car, and we went to Safeway to go get potatoes. we dropped them off at her house and then Carolyn woke up and we went back to open house. We sold cookie dough with Mohid and sold all of them. We took a couple pictures. We got free cookie dough. Thanks Ms. Kahn. Went home and it was the end of the day.

Who would know Carolyn could pick me up?

same with Carol =)

DAY 2. Friday. Me and Lisa had plans to go to Pacific East Mall to get Boba on Thursday but then we ended up going on Friday, Kathy came along and first we went to costco to eat hotdogs she payed for me. And then went to Pacific East Mall and I got a mango milk tea with tapioca pearls and she payed for that too. She wouldn't let me pay for anything. But It was nice of her, Thanks =). I need to make it up somehow though. Got some stuff in mind =) We took pictures in there and it was quite hilarious. We went back to her house and we "watched a movie" but we really didnt just an excuse so I could stay longer. Lisa offered me to sleep over and my dad let me. Surprisingly? haha. Anyways, we went to go look for Carolyn but she didnt go home. We stopped at my house to pick up my stuff. We left and Lisa was having a hard time driving since she couldn't really see. We made it home safe. Got there and we watched Twilight on the internet. haha =). Then this huge commontion went on. Too personal to say. But it was better by the end. We went to her garage and ate. We were dancing and just being stupid. We fell asleep at 2 and woke up at 10. We ate some Vietnamese food which was good and baked cookies. Then around 1:30 my dad picked me up . End of Irma & Lisa Day.

Me.Perlyn.Charisma,Ashley... JUMP

It will get better

Down this road again, Yes. So, last night the unexpexted occurred. Lately, they have been acting differently and meaner than usual. I thought it would pass but it didnt. I doubt we are in talking terms and maybe not even friends.So Why do I always find myself down this road? Thats one question I cant answer myself. But, someone out there can. Therefore, I feel like god is testing me. Ever since 8th grade this has been happening. I feel like Im being blinded by a source, im out there looking for a bestfriend, and I constantly get hurt. So, what is this? Is god trying to tell me that my bestfriends are right there in front me. Or, a Bestfriend isn't what I need. As of right now I dont know. Hopefully things turn out better. You can say I'm sad, but whats the point. Time to move on and forget.

Other than that, R.I.P Camille Rodriguez. Although we didnt talk much, I hope you are doing well.

[This is the only picture I remember taking with you. R.I.P 3/12/93-5/1/09]